Done With Everything&Everyone.?

Let me tell you 1 thing, My life right now, is not so great. I've been carrying a HUGE burden on my shoulders for God-knows-how-long.I'm so tired of crying because of my family.They do nothing but hurt and anger me.I'm only 13 and I need to know that they love for who I am and whatever I choose.They adore my older sis,they think she's the angel child and i'm the devil child -_- I just hate how they believe everything she says and she's always pointing fingers at me and making everything my fault. I don't even try to fight back because I know they won't believe me anyways so what's the point? Whenever they go to mall or Publix or something like that, I always ask if I can come along and my sis says " Mom doesn't want you to go and my answer is always " Oh...Okay Nvm." They don't know how much that hurts. My chest always has a sharp pain in it.I've always been alone and always had to do everything on my own.I've always had to struggle, it's what made me STRONG.I never had the typical family or parents.I just want someone to hug me and tell me that they love me and everything will be okay. But that will never happen, I'm hoping for something that is impossible. Sometimes I just think to myself, Why am i not loved? Why can't I be good enough for them?Why won't they look at me and only her? Why are they so close yet so far apart? I'm just so tired. I want to sleep for a thousand years and not feel this pain in my chest anymore. I'm only 13, I can't handle it anymore.My strength is running out. I'm done with everything&everyone. No more tears left to cry.It will only get worse over the years. The only thing that keeps me alive is the thought of having a wonderful family one day and giving my kids the life I never had and the life I wanted. So tired....Just a need of love and warmth.I want the feel of arms wrapped around me and my tears being wiped away.Is that so much to ask for?...